Bab 492: Sebuah Upaya untuk…

Meskipun emosinya bergejolak, Tang Xiu tetap tenang di permukaan. Ia menatap ekspresi serius di wajah Han Qingwu dan dengan acuh tak acuh berkata, “Terlepas dari apakah aku orang biasa atau bukan, begitu pula, itu tidak ada hubungannya denganmu. Han Qingwu, aku masih ingat pernah mengatakan padamu bahwa kau adalah dirimu dan aku adalah diriku, bukan? Kuharap kita bisa menjaga jarak tertentu di antara kita berdua.”

“Tapi kenapa?!” Han Qingwu tiba-tiba berdiri. Ada kemarahan di wajah cantiknya. Ia tidak tahu mengapa hatinya terasa sakit setelah mendengar apa yang dikatakan Tang Xiu.

“Bukan apa-apa. Hanya saja aku… aku menganggapmu sebagai guruku. Ada perbedaan generasi di antara kita. Selain itu, ada juga beberapa preseden karena hal itu. Karena kita sudah pernah bertemu ketika aku menjadi muridmu dan kau adalah guru pembimbing kelasku di masa lalu, yang telah menyebabkan begitu banyak gosip dan fitnah akhir-akhir ini. Jadi aku tidak ingin kita terlalu dekat dan disalahpahami oleh orang lain.”

Menatap Tang Xiu dengan tajam, Han Qingwu berkata dengan lantang, “Aku seorang wanita, namun aku tidak takut! Kau seorang pria, jadi apa sebenarnya yang kau takutkan? Siapa pun yang salah paham, biarkan saja mereka salah paham! Bahkan jika kita hidup bersama tanpa menikah, siapa yang peduli tentang itu?”

“Kau…”

Bahkan dalam mimpi terliarnya pun Tang Xiu tak pernah membayangkan Han Qingwu bisa mengatakan hal seperti itu. Melihat ekspresi marahnya, ia segera berdiri dan berkata, “Guru Han, kita semua sudah dewasa. Kita perlu melihat segala sesuatu dengan kepala jernih. Bahkan jika Anda tidak mempertimbangkan saya, saya percaya bahwa saya berhak untuk berbicara, bukan begitu? Jika kita terlalu dekat, itu akan memengaruhi saya dan… dan perasaan saya terhadap pacar saya. Anda juga melihatnya datang ke tempat saya untuk menginap di sini, bukan? Dia tidak mengatakan apa pun meskipun Anda datang larut malam, namun saya cukup yakin bahwa dia pasti kesal dan merasa jengkel karenanya.”

“Pacarmu… pacarmu?” Han Qingwu bergumam sambil melirik tak percaya ke koridor tempat Mu Wanying menghilang beberapa saat yang lalu.

“Ya, Mu Wanying adalah pacar saya.” Tang Xiu menguatkan hatinya sambil mengangguk. “Jangan bilang kau tidak mengerti? Dengan kepribadiannya, bagaimana mungkin dia bisa tinggal di sini bersamaku jika dia bukan pacarku? Hanya saja kami tidak ingin mengungkapkannya kepada siapa pun. Tapi sekarang, kau memaksaku untuk mengatakan itu, jadi aku hanya bisa jujur dan terbuka padamu.”

Han Qingwu mengangkat tangannya untuk menutupi dadanya. Dia merasa seperti kehilangan sesuatu yang sangat penting baginya secara tiba-tiba. Di tengah perasaan kehilangan itu, ada juga rasa sakit yang menusuk yang sangat sulit untuk digambarkan dengan kata-kata.

“Aku… aku mengerti.”

She turned away and left.Her expression looked extraordinarily vacant as she walked away.It was as if she had lost her soul, to the extent that she didn’t take her car that was parked outside the courtyard, and just walking away muddle-headedly.

Tang Xiu followed her from behind, albeit quietly.After walking out of the courtyard, he watched her increasingly thin back, and secretly sighed inside.He knew that Han Qingwu was Xue Qingcheng, for the memory when he got ambushed in the Immortal World was something impossible for him to forget.

Therefore, what he felt toward Han Qingwu was very complicated.Gratitude, hatred, loss…and all sorts of emotions came flooding his heart.It was like all kinds of emotions were constantly rising and surging inside him.

“Master, did you have a quarrel or something?”

Coming quietly to Tang Xiu’s side, Chen Zhizhong looked at Han Qingwu’s back with a somewhat pitying expression.

Tang Xiu nodded, and then shook his head.After Han Qingwu’s back vanished in the far corner, he sighed, “Some grievances and resentments are very complicated.Go follow her!Don’t let her get into an accident on her way back home.”

“All right!”

Despite realizing that he had no rights to interfere with Tang Xiu’s emotional problems, Chen Zhizhong still carried out his orders and quickly returned to the courtyard.He took up his coat and put it on, as he then strode toward the direction where Han Qingwu had just gone.

As for Tang Xiu, he returned to the living room and found that Mu Wanying had come out of her room.She was now sitting on the sofa, seemingly pondering about something, yet it was unknown what she was thinking about.Had it been before, Tang Xiu might have asked about it to her, but now he didn’t feel like asking her anything, and only wanted to return to his room for some peace of mind.

“I already told you long ago that she likes you, Tang Xiu.”

Mu Wanying’s voice suddenly rang behind Tang Xiu.

Tang Xiu’s pace came to a halt as he turned to look at Mu Wanying, who was now standing, and calmly replied, “Sorry about using your name as my girlfriend just now.It was just I need to shake Han Qingwu off from me.”

“Why did you do that?It shouldn’t be necessary, right?” Asked Mu Wanying with a bitter smile.“Although I do not hope that you can be together with Han Qingwu, yet using this reason to reject her will hurt her very much.”

“Ada sesuatu yang pernah kudengar, bahwa perasaan rumit antara dua orang sebaiknya terus-menerus diputus, karena akan lebih baik memotong simpul kusut dengan pisau tajam dan mengakhiri faktor emosional yang rumit. Aku punya kehidupanku sendiri dan dia punya kehidupannya sendiri. Jadi aku menunggu dia menemukan suaminya, dan kemudian aku juga akan membangun keluargaku sendiri, sehingga kita berdua bisa, dan akan melupakan keberadaan satu sama lain. Tahukah kau hal yang paling menakutkan di dunia ini?” kata Tang Xiu acuh tak acuh.

“Apa itu?” tanya Mu Wanying.

“Waktu! Waktu dapat menyembuhkan dan menghapus semua luka, namun waktu juga mampu membuat seseorang melupakan banyak hal,” jawab Tang Xiu.

Waktu?

Mu Wanying menggelengkan kepalanya, “Jika manusia bisa hidup selama seribu tahun atau bahkan sepuluh ribu tahun, mungkin aku bisa menerima pendapatmu. Namun, umur manusia paling lama hanya seratus tahun. Bahkan untuk beberapa perasaan yang terukir begitu dalam di tulang dan hati seseorang, berlalunya waktu tidak akan cukup untuk menghapusnya, bahkan setelah puluhan tahun berlalu. Di dalam hati mereka, rasa sakit itu akan selalu diingat, dan cinta mereka akan selalu terkubur dalam-dalam.”

Tang Xiu terdiam.

Dia tahu bahwa Mu Wanying benar. Kata-kata hebat dan fantastis yang baru saja diucapkannya hanyalah untuk meyakinkan dirinya sendiri agar melupakan Han Qingwu, namun bagaimana mungkin dia bisa melupakannya?

Tiba-tiba, dia merasa agak konyol dan menggelikan, berpikir bahwa gagasan untuk menipu dirinya sendiri benar-benar akan terlintas di benaknya. Melihat dirinya di cermin sekarang, dia menyadari bahwa meskipun dia berniat untuk hidup sesuai keinginannya, sekarang tampaknya itu akan terlalu sulit.

Sambil menatap Tang Xiu yang terdiam, senyum mempesona tiba-tiba muncul di wajah cantik Mu Wanying. Ia melangkah maju dengan ringan dan sambil tersenyum berkata, “Tang Xiu, kau adalah orang kesayanganku, pria paling luar biasa yang pernah kutemui. Aku benar-benar ingin mengambil kesempatan ini saat kau berada dalam kondisi mental yang paling tidak stabil untuk masuk ke dalam hatimu. Mungkin ini adalah kesempatan terbaik yang pernah kumiliki dalam hidupku. Bagaimana? Jadilah priaku, dan aku akan menjadi wanitamu. Jika kau mau, bagaimana kalau kita membuat akta nikah besok?”

“Hah? Apa kau demam atau apa?”

Tang Xiu tidak ingin menjelaskan lebih lanjut tentang topik ini, ia sengaja mengangkat tangannya untuk menyentuh dahi Mu Wanying dan berkata sambil tersenyum.

Mu Wanying tersenyum tipis. Seolah-olah berhasil menebak maksud Tang Xiu, dia tetap melanjutkan, “Jangan mencoba mengalihkan pembicaraan, ya? Aku tidak demam, aku sangat sehat dan waras. Aku tahu kau agak tak berdaya karena tidak ingin terlibat dengan begitu banyak wanita hebat. Jika kau menikahiku, kau akan punya alasan untuk membenarkan dirimu kepada mereka. Jadi mengapa tidak melakukannya?”

The smile on Tang Xiu’s face slowly fading away.He looked at Mu Wanying’s extremely beautiful face as he stepped back and shook his head, “I’m sorry.I can’t give you my feelings.”

“We can put aside the sentimental issue for now.I believe that as long as I can have your body, I can also have your heart sooner or later,” said Mu Wanying.

“Do you really think you can have my heart if you can possess my body?” Tang Xiu shook his head yet again.

“Maybe not, but how can I know if I don’t give it a try?” Said Mu Wanying.“If I win, then you will be completely mine.And if I lose, I’ll still admit it, regardless.”

Tang Xiu turned around and ascended the stairs, leaving only a few words to Mu Wanying, “I don’t think you need to try it anymore, for someone has already taken possession of my body, despite not having my heart.The matter that gnaws my heart still cannot be untied, and even if there are more people knocking on my door, I still cannot give them my heart.”

Mu Wanying was frozen, dumbfounded.

Everything she said tonight all came from the bottom of her heart, yet she never expected that Tang Xiu would unexpectedly give her such an answer.

Who was it?

She really wanted to find out who the woman was.She felt faintly envious toward the woman who could get Tang Xiu’s body, even though she was unable to get his heart.

This night, Mu Wanying was struck with insomnia.So was Han Qingwu.

As for Han Qingwu who looked like losing her mind, she walked aimlessly and and in a muddle-headed state for a very long time.Only after she was almost hit by a car on the driveway did she snap back to her senses, as she was saved by Chen Zhizhong who came to the rescue.

After she returned to her place, Han Qingwu soaked herself in the bathtub for a very long time, yet it was like she was being enveloped by a bulb of Death qi.Then, still looking vacant and muddleheaded, she crawled out of the bathtub, putting on pajamas, and laid herself down on the bed with her eyes open until dawn.

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The next morning, Tang Xiu went to the campus.After exchanging some books in the library, he chatted with Yue Kai, Xue Chao, and some others, and then called Chen Zhizhong to begin his trip back to Star City.

At South Gate Town…

A good smell fluttered into Tang Xiu’s nose just as he entered the house, causing his heart to turn particularly calm at this moment.

A mother is truly an existence a family must have!

For the 10,000 years he had lived in the Immortal World, he had always dreamed of going back home; wishing to smell the fragrance of food made by his mother after he struggled in the outside world.Back then, he always wanted to see that familiar back, and seeing her everlasting young face.Suddenly, he realized that he was truly laughable for having such chaotic feelings affected him.No matter what he had encountered in the past, he had already returned back home now and was truly living in the same world as his mother’s.

“Xiu’er, where is your baggage?” Asked Tang Yunde with a faint smile while walking down the stairs, as he looked at Tang Xiu who came back empty-handed.

As of now, Tang Xiu didn’t want to tell him the matter with the interspatial ring, so he casually fabricated a reason.Nevertheless, he was actually feeling warm in the inside.Back then, never had a chance to taste a fatherly love was also one of his regret.But now, not only was he able to return to his mother’s side after he returned, that regret was also made up by his father’s love.These were all the reasons that he felt warm inside.

“Dad, where’s Mom?”

“She’s cooking in the kitchen.We knew you were coming back, and she, she just rejected everything I told he even if I already told her that I’d handle it,” said Tang Yunde smilingly.

Tang Xiu let out a smile and walked into the kitchen door.There, he saw the back of his busy mother, Su Lingyun.As if she had heard the sounds of his footsteps, Su Lingyun turned her head toward him.

“Xiu’er, you’re back!!!Go wash your hands.I’ll quickly fry a dish for you!”

“All right, Mom!” Tang Xiu smilingly replied, and then turned toward the bathroom with a happy look on his face.

The dinner was only attended by their family of three, yet the atmosphere was harmonious and overflowed with joy.This kind of atmosphere not only filled Tang Xiu’s heart with warmth, even Su Lingyun who was recalling the past days got affected.Some certain moments made her eyes turn red, but the smile on her face was particularly dazzling.

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